Depressed

Feeling emotional again...

Every time i browsed through my blog, different thoughts kept coming in wanting me to send out words expressing my complicated thoughts. So many things in me has changed when i look into the past and present. I used to be cheerful back then, and i am always passionate and determined in whatever i do. Most importantly whatever i did i did it without regrets and I'm always contented in whatever presented itself to me. However, now I'm seeing myself as another alter ego where I'm significantly different compared to my prior self. I lost my passion for a lot of things. I quit my favorite sport basketball for no reason. People around turned their back on me. Friendship seemed to be fragile these days, i hate to say that but that was what i truly felt. Now and then many things had overlapped itself, never a state of balance. Sooner or later i think my whole life will be sheer misery. Life has never been simple, I'm opted to do things where i can never make rightful decisions. Problems never came to a complete settlement. Above all, I'm beginning to hate myself for that!

For all those sadness and disappointments that i've brought, i'm truly sorry! I shall reconsider myself and i will change to be a better man in future.

I'm 21 now, life is at another turning point. I want a bright future and hence things has to alter itself to the most decent. I shall recover fast and make this point a stepping stone to whoever i foresee myself. God bless me.